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| oh man, i seriously hope that the rest of the country isn't broadcasting octomom headlines as much as they're doing it in southern cali. when will there be a law set in place to actually set REAL boundaries about what is considered newsworthy? i'm not saying having 8 kids isn't newsworthy, but it's not ok to exploit these babies and to harass the mom everywhere she goes.
i have to say, when she had her babies, i did not give her a second thought. i went by what people told me, and what i briefly heard on the news after quickly changing the channel. i thought she was just a confused woman trying to fill a void by surrounding herself with babies. and that she was so confused and selfish, that she was willing to sacrifice the well-being of these children.
i still think that. i think she made many mistakes. BUT .. i don't think she's entirely heartless as i originally thought she was. lol. i had never watched any type of interview that she was in until a few days ago. my parents were watching dr. phil, i was on the computer, and i gave in. after watching her speak, i do believe that she cares for her children. i don't think that makes up for her irresponsibility, but i do believe she wants her children to grow up into healthy adults. maybe it was her expression while she was speaking about her children that made me believe in her sincerity.
through the entire show, dr. phil kept reiterating that yes, he didn't agree with many of her choices, but ultimately it was about these children. that really made sense to me.
i wish her and her family the best and hope that she decides to hire a bunch of nannies. i don't think that starting a reality show is a right move, but again i still send them good graces.
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| tonight, i will not go to sleep at 3 a.m. or later.
i need to quit acting like i don't like to sleep.
random thoughts:
1. i love ingrid michaelson
2. maybe i was a little harsh towards the guy at del taco
3. my nail biting is getting out of control
4. why can't i ever make decent hot chocolate?
5. i really like lean cuisine.
6. yaaay i get to see y on sat
7. how come i always have english teachers who will accept some late assignments, but my math teachers never do? my math teacher knows i rarely miss his class .. why can't i make up one exam? and why does he have to know my cousins? why do i have to suffer because i have a gazillion people in my family? alright, that's dramatic, but i hate it when people think you're anything like someone with your last name. i barely know half the people i'm related to.
8. i really don't want to work out
9. i can't wait till spring break
10. excited about interview on friday
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| omg. i just fixed my speakers. HOLY CRAP. i have sound on my computer again. i could kiss someone. i have music. oh music, how i've missed you so!!!
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| ok, really. when i am having an embarrassing, dorky moment ... why is there ALWAYS someone there to witness it? can't i just have it in my conscious? isn't it enough that i be embarrassed without someone laughing about it, too? maybe they're not laughing in my face, but that's because they're trying to be polite. come to think of it, my most embarrassing moments are considered so embarrassing to me because i'm not alone. figures. i am way too self-conscious. actually, today was pretty cool. i think it was because i was feeling extra happy that this week hasn't been cold at all. we've been having summer weather. i tasted these mexican chocolates from my sister that were SOOO good. wow. they're called colosseo. i think i'll have another. i really need to scope out some part of mexico soon. i've always wanted to go. especially after doing a project last semester on part of the mexican culture. so my english class is so cramped. it's not like we have a lot of people in our class, but the room is soo small. i'm not usually claustrophobic, but i was today. i'm really stressing over paying for my stupid books. sometimes i wonder if i really should be going to school. i feel guilty that my mom has to spend her hard earned money from her shitty job on outrageously priced books. i know she wants me to go to school, but [sigh]. hopefully i can pay her back soon. so apparantly disneyland is giving free admission for one ticket on your birthday. hahaha. to spend my 19 birthday at disneyland .. tempting. i really wouldn't mind, of course i'd go out prob to a club later at night. i haven't been to disneyland in a while. i remember being prob 4 foot tall and struggling to see the fireworks show. i guess i have grown even though i still feel like i'm 4 feet sometimes. so on to my rant about the lakers. ok, i do think that andrew bynum has potential, but why OH why aren't you rebounding? and you are not only NOT rebounding, your DEFENSE is pitiful. alright, so the whole laker team's defense is wack, but not has horrible as yours. if you're just on the court waiting to for someone to pass the ball to you, please bench yourself. i don't care how many points you make, your restless attitude kills the spirit of the game. and ariza. did you just get called for traveling 3 times in a game? or was it 4?  wtf. i actually like your style of play, but that is just sad. i better get some sleep. | | |
| i can't believe it's 2009.
i have to say one of the best parts of this year was going to the county faire. lmao. i love those things. i guess it's a highlight every year bc i go every year. riding that elephant was INSANE! though it was fun, i felt so guilty. i don't have a clue about elephant behavior, but i know that the elephant wanted to be anywhere BUT the faire giving rides to humans. i've been thinking for a while .. the wild animal park, where they have all these animal shows .. the place that i love to go .. how is it right to control these animals? to use them for entertainment? i won't go to a circus bc of animal cruelty, but how is going to the wild animal park any better? i don't know. [sigh]
and another chill thing i got to see at the faire was these japanese drummers. they were hot shit. very talented.
one of the people i'm most proud of this past year is my brother. he bought a three bedroom house that was so run down, TOE UP, completely BROKE DOWN. the past owners were supposably drug dealers and that SHIT is comedy. well, after i got past feeling sorry for my brother & his girlfriend that they had to remodel the whole place .. i had to laugh bc their house is in this quiet neighborhood, they live next to a country club, i barely HEAR anything when i visit their place. they have been working on the house ever since august. i helped a bit, too .. which was pretty hilarious. who knew painting a wall could be a workout? they're still in the process, but it really looks amazing now.
one of the downsides to this year was going to a funeral for a baby that passed away. that was so .. . oh man. although i don't want to have children, seeing their grief, strength, and the love they had for their child .. it was so sad. i really try to avoid funerals altogether, but it really put things in perspective. i remember i was feeling shitty over something trivial before i went, and those feelings were gone in an instant. i hate that i can't step back and look at the big picture. their strength was so inspiring.
in 2009 i hope to mature more, to take more responsibility, be accountable. to quit trippin over dumb shit. lol. they're not resolutions, i consider them on going goals. it's something i constantly have to work at. and i also want to be more disciplined in all areas of my life, especially school. & how can i forget working out ..  why couldn't i just have a high metabolism and junk in the trunk?
and another highlight .. of course obama winning the election. i still can't believe i was part of that. it's an honor in so many ways. when i think about minority children in school .. learning about history and the american presidents. and having a president who many can relate to .. being raised by a single mother and having money problems, but still being tenacious and unafraid to go for what he wanted. oh god, now i'm getting teary-eyed. i mean, that day was so surreal. i was on the phone with my friend, and to be a product of an immigrant household and and to see someone other than a white person win a presidential election. to witness something that was so long overdue .. wow. just wow.
here's to 2009 and a more effective government that can cater to this generation.
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